before.

This piece is known as ‘the poem that’s so cheesy it’s practically fondue’. You’ve been warned.

would you
come over to
my house we could
sit on the floor
make up lyrics for
forgotten songs
you would
tuck your toes under my thigh
warm your fingertips on
the chipped porcelain of my
skull-shaped teacup
when I bring it to my lips it
always reminds me of
you

let me be kind to 
someone who won’t 
hold it against me

I will
listen while you 
talk about the things you
love
you could
laugh at my jokes
if you think they’re funny
maybe when I’m tired
I’ll let you 
mess up my hair
we could
share a blanket and
fall asleep holding hands

I don’t want romance.
please, darling,
just see me

Things to commit to memory

I spent Halloween night writing and singing songs with my friends. It was the very definition of living my best life. This is for them.

My heart is so full
Of mismatched stickers on computers
Fantastic bouts of laughter
Cigarette breaks in the coldest darkest night
Plush leaf sheep petted, coddled, traded from hand to hand
Dark secrets of Google searches revealed

Our fearless leaders:
Pink hair, clear eyes, green tail
Construct elaborate militant theories
About giant monsters, savior robots,
Humans crushed under their heel

A twin by my side
Enthusiast romantic chemist
Pilot of twenty one vessels
Trash collector king:
My serendipitous brother

This community of dedicated warriors:
The quiet pitter-patter of their typing fingers
Spinning into being, heart-shaped, hard-edged,
Untold worlds, luminescent on a dusty keyboard
Through obscure challenges and inside jokes

This drivel we’ve written
This dream of ours
An unpalatable house of cards
Crumbling under the weight of our critical minds

We exchange stamps, cards, notebooks
Enough food and coffee to feed a small army
Of relentless storytellers
Diligent wordsmiths
Stumbling, half-awake, through the hurdles of adulthood
Hopeful, toward a bowl of hummus

The sun crests high windows
Ornate ceilings
A guitar, five voices
Exhausted, heartfelt, elated
Drag half-forgotten lyrics from their deepest teenage angst
(Even Thom Yorke wouldn’t
Take this from us)
Melodies warm up my icy fingers, my black-striped soul
Until they remember how to sing

Down on the ground, up through the roof
We drown our weary bodies
In pancakes and syrup
My daydream empire for an inviting bed

But the warmth of your smiles
Keeps me awake
Humming
Climbing
All the way up to my ivory tower

I feel alive when I’m surrounded with
Talented driven compassionate silly
Rainbow-colored
Friends

Flagey

I do not count the songs we sung
As wasted breath
Sitting with you
Lost in a crowded square

Icy splashes dampen your heavy jacket
Whoever thought it was a good idea
To have fountains running in November
Can come talk to me

My numb fingers close on yours
You make these moments
Some kind of magic

Brux-hell

Nightmares are made of your thick grey smoke and your gridlocked streets
Stinking of bloated rotting money
Paralyzed by white hypocrisy
Tarp-covered holes where windows roofs walls should be
Your genocidal kings adorn
Dark tunnels and deserted squares
Flickering flames honor
Forgotten men slaughtered for the crown
Under the stinging rain
The shivering rain
The beating rain
The heavy wind drowns out the memory
Of the flesh that haunts you
Grease running down the pavement
Old as sin
Fresh as the beer flooding your veins
Loud
Tongues and lips biting out guttural harmonies
Accented cries falling on tone-deaf ears
Ugly and scarred from a sprawling concrete cancer
Rising from the ashes of your splendid past
Poor like the dirt
Poor like a shriveled heart
Poor like a homeless man writing poems on scraps of paper
In the neon alleys of your swarming underbelly
Brux-hell

I fought with all the life left in my body to come back to you
Lost in a country that would never call itself mine
I balled up my last shreds of hope and hurled it at your swelling putrid heart
You took it, let me sink into you like molten copper
Lonely town
I took my first free breath in the middle of your labyrinth and was reborn
You are the strength in my limbs the breath in my lungs the sun in my smiles the despair in my soul

Brux-hell
I have missed you like I missed my skin

Brux-hell
Incomparable mess horrible hateful impossible city

I love you

Thaw

You’ve got to trust the burgeoning trees
To weather the storms
Take strength in the earth
And grow

Flowers are stronger than you think
They will still be there tomorrow
Do not be afraid
There’s probably a lesson there for you to grasp

But spring is barely born
And you have barely started to thaw
Trust the trees, the plants, the earth and the sky
To take you where you need to go

Hope is at the tip of your tongue
There is no black or white
No sweltering heat to blistering cold
It’s a scale made of notes you’ve come to know